chew I will also pray for you, if you give this worry to God he will take care of you, and as far as having family, I learned at a VERY young age, you can make your own family, I will not go into details, but I had no family, and if you are talking blood raise you, still have none, I guess I do somewhere, I really didn't hatch, but anyway
You can make your own family in the strangest ways, I have a wonderful, mother, grandma, best friend that did not even know I was alive until I was 30 and she was 80. I have several brothers and sisters, and a whole bunch of kids, I do now have my husband and 2 children and grandsons, but I love my made family just as much as my blood family, I never call one my real family because my made family are real to, I don't think they are made of marshmallows anyway.
So just a note to say don't ever feel like you have no family and can't ever get one, there are 100s of lonely older people who would give anything to have someone as there family, and it does take time to build the relationship, and everyone doesnt work, but hey how many people get to pick their family instead of the one they are stuck with. look at this as a opportunity to start fresh and meet allot of new people who could be your new family. good luck and I will pray, and most important always always remember you are Gods child's and never really alone.
