UGH! Where do I start? LOL
Pam, I can't tell you how much I envy you nor how proud I am of you and I don't even know you! Any smoker knows how hard it is to quit and fight the cravings one will get. I can't imagine what crackheads go through but then again if it's anything like cigs I can!

I've quit 6 times since New Year's. It wasn't a resolution, I just thought I had had my fill, until I figured differently. Smoking is like an old friend who you love and always want to be around. It's mind-boggling how one can depend on something so much that has the potential to kill you.
I'm a beer drinker and a coffee drinker. Like anyone who drinks and smokes, you know you feel like you can't have a drink without a cig. Or one who liks that cig first thing in the morning or after a meal. I know it takes one to actually change up one's routine to successfully quit but I feel like I can't. I want that cig when I'm drinking coffee or when I'm having a beer. I want that cig right after a meal or snack.
My neigbor quit 6 years ago. She said she even changed her route to work because she'd get to a certain point and it was habit that she lit up. She said to stock up on Jolly Ranchers and anything crunchy or low-fat to occupy your mouth. She gave up coffee and wine because those were huge triggers.
For me, it feels like I'm coming out of my skin after 4 days. I'm so damn irritable I can't stand myself and I feel like I'm functioning on fumes. Depressed, unmotivated, sad, in mourning to name a few emotions. I've been smoking out of my back door for 4 months now so I thought I'd take it a step further and only smoke outside. I'm outside so much I ain't getting anything done LOL
I know it isn't my time to quit. I know I have to really want it and I just don't. I don't want to die from it but I don't want to give it up. I've been wondering what my breaking point will be. The one thing that will effect me enough to just stop. I've even gone as far as to look at pics I've googled on what lung cancer looks like. Lung cancer and mouth cancer. It just doesn't seem to be enough.
What was your breaking point? What was the one thing that made you put them down for good no matter how much you wanted to pick them back up?