My mom passed away exactly one year ago today. Despite the grief counseling it still hits me over and over again. As my counselor says....one step forward....a few back.....but you do keep on going. I have tried to prepare myself for today.......but thats kinda an understatement. My mom and I had a love/hate relationship but were very close.....and she has always lived near me...as i am one who believes in taking care of our elders if at all possible. To be honest, I never thought i would cave in as bad as i have over the last year. I pride myself in being a very strong person.
Two weeks after my mom died, my best friend...aged 48 in Canada died of Stage 4 cancer. A week before Christmas a friend my age......54 died.
On March 16th of this year my daughter Michelle-38, passed away. She wasnt my biological daughter but that really doesnt matter. I shared 25 wonderful years with her.
This has been the toughest YEAR of my life!
I know that the Creator above never sends more than you can handle..........so am asking that you remember me today as i go through the waxing and waning of all different emotions that hit you at a time like this.
SA kept me sane during this last year-a place to go to and occupy my mind and keep me busy.
Thank you!

  That is alot of grief for one year. I am so sorry that you have had so much to try to deal with. I really do understand your feelings about losing your mom. It is going on 3 years since my own mom passed and some days I can barely keep it together. I miss her so much. Her passing was such a shock. I just try to get thru the days by remembering all the great times we did have together and trying to live my life in a way that would make her proud. Stay strong and make your mama proud.  Big Hugs!

Lost my mom ten years ago - it still hurts, but it does get easier.
Hang in there - will say a prayer for you and your family.